My First Post
Hi,
Here I am writing my first blog. Have read plenty of them, admired them criticized them. Read about bad people, good people but this is mine. Not that I am proud of it, its jus that this time it me expressing myself like never before. So this is me here for u and myself, to help me know myself better, to let u know about me.
I was an average student at school, oh who am I kidding, i shudnt be lying here atleast, was a below average rather until class IX but then the only constant in this world is change, so I was a victim too. Not that i did something too good in my report card but sth that I cud be proud of myself. I was not competing against others, I was competing against myself. 70% + was the target I set for me, was expecting too much even my parents said they wud give me anything I put my hand on if I cud manage that high score, high being a relative term here. But I did. It was 77% and I was on Cloud No. 9, earned respect in my eyes, forget about others. First year, rest year. Two years passed, I was still resting on my Cloud no. 9, when I had to compete against others this time. Flunked in JEE. Prepared again. Flunked again. Wanted to prepare again but my dad stopped fearing my flunk again.
Got and admit to an average college, an above average rather. The best days of my life. Earned so much in these years, friends and what else, somebody please tell me what is it, what else is it. Cannot remember another thing. May it wasnt even there. All I did was rigorous studies and securing good, sometimes very good marks in exams but learning nothing. I didnt have desire too. This was not a field for me. Getting involved in friendships to the deepest level was all I did, but that certainy is not the thing that cud help in mendingmy career. Realized it pretty late in the Final yr and by that time it was pretty much late. Took my bet on CAT. Flunked. Had a decent job but wanted more money, so tried out for sth else and got it fortunately, still cannot think what did they find in me. May be sth that even I havent discovered. Joined a company that provided me with a software job, which is really terrrifying for me, I dont want to do it, not that I cannot do it, but I dont want to do it. Its been around 9 months now and I am still thinking the same. Seems like as if I am being complacent. In the mean time, had my second bet on CAT, but guess what, yeah you guessed it right, Flunked again, not completely though. Now here I am preparing again but NOT to flunk again, to excel this time.
All my friends have had their reasons to throw a party, I am still searching for a reason that I am happy with. Birthdays are boring. Success is sweet. Will find a reason in 11 months from now and then we will have a party. I will be happy again, I will be proud of myself, I will taste a real success and then will tell you how it is.
Cheers
Here I am writing my first blog. Have read plenty of them, admired them criticized them. Read about bad people, good people but this is mine. Not that I am proud of it, its jus that this time it me expressing myself like never before. So this is me here for u and myself, to help me know myself better, to let u know about me.
I was an average student at school, oh who am I kidding, i shudnt be lying here atleast, was a below average rather until class IX but then the only constant in this world is change, so I was a victim too. Not that i did something too good in my report card but sth that I cud be proud of myself. I was not competing against others, I was competing against myself. 70% + was the target I set for me, was expecting too much even my parents said they wud give me anything I put my hand on if I cud manage that high score, high being a relative term here. But I did. It was 77% and I was on Cloud No. 9, earned respect in my eyes, forget about others. First year, rest year. Two years passed, I was still resting on my Cloud no. 9, when I had to compete against others this time. Flunked in JEE. Prepared again. Flunked again. Wanted to prepare again but my dad stopped fearing my flunk again.
Got and admit to an average college, an above average rather. The best days of my life. Earned so much in these years, friends and what else, somebody please tell me what is it, what else is it. Cannot remember another thing. May it wasnt even there. All I did was rigorous studies and securing good, sometimes very good marks in exams but learning nothing. I didnt have desire too. This was not a field for me. Getting involved in friendships to the deepest level was all I did, but that certainy is not the thing that cud help in mendingmy career. Realized it pretty late in the Final yr and by that time it was pretty much late. Took my bet on CAT. Flunked. Had a decent job but wanted more money, so tried out for sth else and got it fortunately, still cannot think what did they find in me. May be sth that even I havent discovered. Joined a company that provided me with a software job, which is really terrrifying for me, I dont want to do it, not that I cannot do it, but I dont want to do it. Its been around 9 months now and I am still thinking the same. Seems like as if I am being complacent. In the mean time, had my second bet on CAT, but guess what, yeah you guessed it right, Flunked again, not completely though. Now here I am preparing again but NOT to flunk again, to excel this time.
All my friends have had their reasons to throw a party, I am still searching for a reason that I am happy with. Birthdays are boring. Success is sweet. Will find a reason in 11 months from now and then we will have a party. I will be happy again, I will be proud of myself, I will taste a real success and then will tell you how it is.
Cheers
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