Countdown has begun!!!

Hi,
The countdown has begun. Its not more that one and half months to CAT and I feel I am back to square one. I started off well with 99+ %ile score in CL Mocks but the story has finally reached where it was last year. Everytime I walk into the test centre, I feel more confident as if I am going to crack this one like God. This confidence last for few mins, and I am again struggling to clear the cut-off of VA. Having spent 1 hr to it I, I still feel there is something wrog with it.
Here I am right now posting here. I have my another mock tomorrow 8:00 AM. Lets see how this one turns out to be.
CAT isnt just a dream for me, its my career my future. Its a weapon that will help me strike off the tag of stupid-software-engineer from my name. I dont want to be this. I am not meant for this. I dont love my job. I hate it like anything. Once I am thru CAT, the world will be mine. I will do what I like not for money for my interest. Money will come by itself.

Lets rock it this time. Aa dekhe zara kisme kitna hai dum.

I wont bell u CAT, I will rather screw you.

Cheers!!!