The D-Day!!!

Its Jan 02, 2007 today. The day which I waited for over an year in a hope to get some smile, real smile on my face. The face is dim now. No one can bring smile to my face. Seems like this blog belongs to a loser. Am I a loser? I guess I am. I feel everyone feels the same.

Was trying to see my score at IIMK site for long. In the meantime, Bua called up and started crying on the phone. I haven't been to her place since last two weeks even after being invited coupla times. Suddenly the page opened and displayed some dirty figures. The figure was 92.55. This represents my score on the CAT, which I am trying to tame since last 3 years. There was a mixed feeling which made me realise that it is so very difficult to be an actor. Specifically a comedian. I had to cheer up my Bua in spite of tears in my eyes. Thank God or whoever is sitting up there that the conversation was telephonic. She couldn't see me, I couldn't’t see her. But then reality was in my eyes in a moment. I went out and smoked a cigarette.

That’s the end of it. That’s the end of it. This is what I feel. I cannot survive it next time. I wont.

After all I am a manager to the core without a degree in management, or should I say diploma which these fuckin’ institutes offer.

I don’t need it. I don’t need it anymore.

Cheers in Tears!!!